dream (actually aug. 28th)

Syam and myself were trying to go to Syamakunda's door but she was on the alter and it was locked.We road on the flat bed of a truck, then Syam took a horse, when we got near the fence of the pasture it bucked him.We walked on glass above the jungle through the the air.In an aratik when the lady devotees did the puja  they had magic wands releasing the beauty to the devotees.Shyamakund was doing the aratik.

objectivity leave me

don't you see I'm fast asleep
memory is lulling
in songs from the hidden deep
carry me away from this foggy shore
share with me the message
and reveal the secret lore
tell me how shall i ever find
favor in the court of the Divine
please don't mislead me
i know I'm insincere
knowledge can remove
this ignorance and drear
awaken me from my condition
with the truth this life does bring
and to this path i shall ever cling

today's dream

i am in Bali's rocking chair with a baby we are using the rocker like a vehicle and i begin a somewhat daangerous journey holding the baby as we go opposite in traffiic through the streets . We are not far from the water and i am looking  for something familiar.We are at Chris's parents house and Allison is taking care of the  place putting things in order the way i used to. in fact i see some of my techniques and cleaning cloths, hidden under in out of the way places. We continue further and we are in someone elses place. The woman picks up a cotton grain bag in the shade of pink, like the color in love coulture,which is being used for  pillow cases and says , these are from 1970's.I am slightly bored why she needed to share that information, thinking 1970 was'nt that long ago.We proceed in the rocker down  the road .

when i am almost awake i think Balaram and Sudar were born in the mid to late 70's.When i was pregnant with Balaram i  had a vision of rain pouring out of the sky on the grains. Much later i heard that the jivatma comes in the rain into the grains and into the semina of the male.

hope

in a bottle
when uncorked
dissolves in the ethers
where it invokes

the proper push toward divinity-
smell the air
as its it sets  you free
taste the pleasure of  fortune's child
pursue the secrets
the Lord unseals
as your heart  begins to reveal
its purpose in this long journey
to worship the Beautiful Reality

come closer
and i whisper sweet
the way is clear
now wet your feet
the universe offers you a treat